I do not understand my sleeping habits at all, lately. By 8 or 9 o'clock my body just shuts down, even on days when I haven't worked 8 hours sorting case work and running about the office, and though I've tried coffee or other means to keep myself up, it's very difficult. I have to be doing something really engrossing, though half the time that doesn't work either.
Of course, the kicker is not that I go to bed too early. It's that I'm awake again around midnight or 1AM and then I don't sleep the rest of the night. So on average, I'm totaling three to four hours of sleep every day, for no good reason at all.
Then I have nights where I sleep in twenty minute intervals the whole night. That is really irritating. And I can't blame any of this on jetlag, I've been back for over six months now. It didn't bother me at first, since at the very least, I felt fine during the day, but it's just annoying. Part of it is probably that I think too damn much, and my brain only seems to be active during times I should be snoring, but I don't know.
So I'm sorry to everyone who's tried talking to me in the last month or so and I keep flaking out in the middle of conversation to tell you I need to sleep or just not responding at all because I've already passed out. orz
I've been thinking that I need to give myself something to look forward to. I've loosely planned trips and considered some options for this year. Funds are extremely tight, but I think I can do it if I give up a few things. One would be a flight south, I'd really like to take a trip on my own, so if I do go, then that would be the one. I'd also like to get out to where aelvana is, or swing up to Michigan-- the latter of which I will end up doing most assuredly, since one of my former roommates is getting married in a few months. So there's that.
And of course, there's still the desire to go on a road trip. That would require extensive planning, though I think of all the road trips I ever did on my own in Japan were completely spontaneous. The sort of trips that I would decide the night before and leave early in the morning without telling anyone. I loved having that kind of freedom. Naturally I can't do that anymore, but I'd still like to go on one, possibly with friends...? :D I kind of want to drive to the east coast, since I haven't been there since I was very very young. Heading out west would be nice too, but maybe on a separate trip.
Welp, time to find something to do with myself today.